flashback bukan macam flash video.

petikan asalnya dari blog peribadi saya,

awak,jangan mainkan perasaan orang..nanti orang mainkan perasaan awk
awak,awak tau karma itu apa?kalau tak tau, awak boleh google
awak,awak dah hancurkan khayalan saya..nnti akan ada org hancurkan realiti awak
awak,saya tak simpan dendam,saya cuma terluka sikit je
awak,saya harap awak sedar yg awak dah buat jiwa saya kacau
awak,jangan datang lagi ye dgn harapan palsu awak tu
awak,saya dah temu bahagia saya yg baru,awak jangan kacau ye
awak,selamat tinggal, saya harus pergi dari khayalan lalu

nak copy?copy lah.bagi yang sesiapa yang patut :)

gambar tiada kena mengena,tapi nak jugak letak.

bebelan 2# ; boyfriend alert.

bunga pun cun juga.

morning boyfriends.here's a guideline for our date(s)  :)

kereta bukan motor

nak dating sila bawa kereta.sebab saya gemuk nanti notor awak pancit.lagi satu saya tak suka peluk-peluk atas motor.malu lah orang nampak kemesraan kita.mesra tak boleh ditunjuk.malu tahu.hujan nnt habis kita basah,tak mahu itu ok.maka,belilah kereta satu :)

rambut natural

mak saya dah warning hari tu.nak cari pakwe jangan yang rambut kaler.mak kata begini,"mcm mana nak jd suami rambut kaler-kaler ni?ntah solat ntah tidak.".jadi,awak jangan kaler rambut.mak saya tak suka.saya tahu awak kacak,tak kaler rambut pun saya masih sayang awak.

hati cekal

kalau tengok wayang awak kena prepare.kalau tengok cerita hantu,saya harap bukan awak yang peluk saya.biar saya yang TERpeluk awak sebab terkejut.bukan awak yg menjerit ketakutan.kalau tengok cerita sedih,awak jangan ejek saya kalau saya menangis.saya tgk 'toy story 3' pun dah boleh meleleh air mata.apatah lagi cerita 'sekali lagi',jangan terkejut kalau bahu awk basah.

telinga kebal,badan besi

saya suka cakap kuat-kuat.kalau saya jerit tiba-tiba awk jgn terkejut.saya bukan sawan,cuma tak tahan.tak tahan tengok awak kacak sangat.saya juga suka cubit,suka pukul tak terkecuali.saya harap awak tak terkejut kalau tiba-tiba saya tepuk awak masa awak driving.tak kahwin kita nanti.

memahami

saya ada penyakit.dalam sebulan ad PMS.masa tu saya suka menangis tiba-tiba.awak jgn cakap saya gila.saya normal,cuma sedikit terganggu waktu itu.masa itu saya harap awak telefon saya dgn berkata,"sayang ok?".hati emosi boleh jadi berseri-seri awak tahu tak?

masa

saya tak mintak awak luang 24 jam sehari untuk saya.awak boleh bersosial dgn kawan awak,saya tak halang.awak boleh buat kerja awak,saya tak halang.cukup bagi saya kalau awak sms saya yang awak bersama rakan atau sedang bekerja.atau awak telefon saya sebelum awak tidur.yang penting saya tahu keadaan awak baik baik sahaja.




saya rasa cukup lah sekadar ini.nanti kalau banyak sangat awak kata saya diva pulak.awak tak buat semua pun tak apa.saya tetap sayang awak.cuma,kurang sikit lah.lain masa saya cerita lagi.

sayang awak.

footnote : alkisah rambut kaler ; kantoi dgn mummy.mummy check my fon and ad gmbr ex(ye, sy simpan gmbr dia sbb dia hensem sgt).dia kaler rambut ok.mak ckp,"nasib baik dah putus.rambut kaler-kaler.mcm mne nk bimbing keluarga?".aiyak!

testing

ad orang keep pushing me,update lah update lah.

so here goes.

hi everyone!

bye everyone.

footnote : yelah nanti aku update.ganti entry ni.ok?aku malas nak menaip.aku belum mandi lagi weyh.opss :)

perihalnya pertimbangan.

or we could call it judgemental in English.

being judgemental might give u some benefits but on the other side,being too judgemental with typical mentality brings u shits more than benefits itself.

"eii.bertudung tapi nyanyi sana sini dalan youtube tu.suara kan aurat.ntah apa-apa je minah ni."

wait,that girl wearing a scarf on her head and she's singing on youtube.she's just wanna share her talent to the world.and where's the wrong in it?
hanya kerana beliau memakai tudung,semua orang melontar cerca dan maki.bagaimana pula dgn penyanyi yg sudah jelas tidak bertudung,bermini skirt lagi.ada yang mahu menabrak mereka dgn berkata,"peha gebu tu aurat weyh","dada pejal tu aurat weyh" ? ada? here goes our beloved typical malay on being judgemental.

"serabut betul tgk perempuan tu pakai selendang ntah apa-apa.tudung ke selimut tu?eii.merepek."

i laugh whenever i hear those.somehow there're peoples who envy the beauty of the lady who wears shawls and keep on saying those girls are ugly.wake up dork!you are the one who ugly,keep envying others and keep badmouthing others.
ada segelintir pihak mengatakan memakai selendang/shawls tidak menutup aurat seperti mana memakai tudung bawal biasa.sedar atau tidak pashmina itu lebih labuh daripada tudung bawal biasa itu sendiri.
and what i'm trying to say here,let the girls be beautiful as they are.again,here goes of being too jugdemental.

"anak orang kaya.banyak kabel tu.sbb tu dia dapat tempat tu.dasar orang kaya."

and how about he/she gets the place as they work for it?or they really are qualified enough for that places? berdosa tahu fitnah orang sesuka hati.mcm mana nak mintak ampun tu?

and people keep pointing fingers at others while they couldn't realized that they themselves did wrong everytime.

please,do speak wisely and stop judging too much.you are showing how stupid you are when u talk too much.

my BIG so here,stop being stupid :)

footnote : mummy's back from kursus.she got a signature from Dr.Fazley and she keep boasting about that.urgh.tak heran pun!

#with mummy

with mummy,

#1
[laying and hugging on the bed together with her,on her bed of course.daddy's not around that time]

mummy : adik agak-agak nak kahwin bila?
me : LOL.that's too funny,ma.but,the latest on 25.boleh tak,ma?
mummy : 25?
me : yup.not specifically married lah.but at least dh tied to somebody.steady boyfie,engagement or something.
mummy : sounds great.berapa tahun lagi?mak nak prepare.
me : 6 years,ma!6 years doesn't sounds long enough.OMG,nak kahwin! :D

#2
[at kenduri kahwin,i found out that kawan ayah berbesan dgn kawan ayah jugak]

me : ma,nanti ma nak berbesan dgn kawan ma or with strangers?
mummy : hee.sukati kau la *she giggles and eat her food.

#3
[another kenduri kahwin]

mummy : meh mak nak tunjuk officemate mak yg handsome.mcm hero filem melayu.
me : mane?yg baju purple tu?
mummy : bukan.tu org lain
me : really?but he's cute.

the result; mase dekat ofis,my mum pergi cakap dgn that purple guy,"anak aku cakap kau hensem."

#4
[at home.guling-guling sahaja]

me : ma,i went for a date.with the senior that i like.
mummy : yang mane ni?ma dah tak ingat.ramai sgt lah.
me : *and i was likeeee....errr...ma?ok.fine


#5
[12AM at pavillion for a movies.and she called me.]

mummy : kat mana ha?
me : kl ma.going for midnight movies
mummy : dgn siapa?
me : the D and T,and a **guyfriend.he's driving.
mummy : oh.ok.hati-hati.asyik keluar je kau ni.ok, mak nak harvest farmville.bye

**subject to change. (dan selalunya memang bertukar pun)

#6
[and this happened when dad buy me a RM30 topup.dah lama,when i was 13 or 14, tapi takpe lah]

daddy : dah dapat topup?
me : dah.RM10 je.
daddy : ayah beli kan RM30 la
mummy : mak amek RM20.budak-budak mana boleh pakai banyak.nak buat apa?
me : maaaaaaaaaaaa *cekak pinggang

and that's me,ma :)

she's my bestfriend.she's my foe.she's my everything.

footnote : i will be posting my comical moments with my special peeps now and onwards,based on my mood.check out fot the #  sign!

less is more

you feel like he's the one who would spend his whole life with you,

in the end,he dumps you.

you feel like she's the very best friend of yours,

in the end,she stabs your back.

you feel like everyone liking you,

in the end,nobody cares about you.

life never meant to be cruel to you,
life just playing fair to you,
life teach you not to hope too much,
life shows you the pain of being hurt.

reality hurts,reality bites.

fantasy just for those who wear pink ribbon and skirts,
there's neither knight in shining armor nor happily ever after.

when you hope too much,you'll hurt more.
when you least expected it,the more impact it gives.

and you could cry when the pain is unbearable.

footnote : play safe by harden your heart.nothing would hurt you more than yourself.

cinta is love.and love might lies.

orang kata cinta tidak mengenal rupa kerna itu cinta itu buta.

andai anda buta,ya benar.anda tidak akan memilih rupa.hakikatnya,anda punya penglihatan yang normal.hakikatnya,anda pasti memilih si dia yang rupawan.

"hey,awek kau gemuk doe.asal kau kapel dgn dye?"

"pkwe kau dlu lg hensem.yg ni..hmm.ntah.pelik je"

"your ex cuter than your fresh.why her?"

why guys?just why ?does looks means everything?does looks is love?

f*ck u.f*ck me as well.i do love hot hunks.no offense,dude.

your life ain't a fairytale.and your life ain't any porn movies too,asshole.

footnote : hey,you are just beautiful as you are.btw,the one who seeks only beauty are ugly.

gone for good,back for better.

hi,i'm back.

do visit me as usual.

and i miss u guys.

sorry for being immature.

it's the real me though.

tak sabar nak kahwin. *tetiba.LOL

footnote : saya masih disini dan terus disini.

hai

buat cukup syarat update blog.

so?diterima tak?

LOL :D

i'm sorry.just kidding.

well,i'm writing for my bestfriend.

sayang,
you always said that u were happy with him.yes,i know that.but,could you please take a few minutes.close your eyes,place your hands on your chest.ask yourself is it true he's the one for you?

sayang,
trust your instinct.trust him.trust yourself.stalk less,trust more.errr.trust yourself,i mean.(oh please never give a boy your fully trust)instinct babe.instinct.LOL (ingat cerita aku kan?)

sayang,
if he ever,ever did something to you.don't feel angry,don't feel sad.bcause i'm always there for you either rain or shine.

little note for you : nasihat sikit kawan kau yg suka add boyfriend orang tu.bahaya ok.BAHAYA.but,if your man turn to her,let him be.it's obvious that he's just a FUCK.

daa~

lots of love,
tootsie.

for my bestestfriend.

i choose to stop cycling.

dear,
when i dream about someone i adore,it means something.
have i told u before?
i guess,not yet.or i did?
i did told u i dreamed about him severals night before right sayang?
well,the signs is now clear.
i need to forget him.
his sunshine is still there.
this ain't lying.though,u are a true stalker aren't u?
i think u might knew t first.or not?i'm not sure.
whatever it is.his sunshine is still there.
thanks for being my greatest backbone ever.
u r the best,sayang.

i love you.

ur brutally-melt hearted girl,
u know who.



footnote : and i'm ok.yes,i am :)

when we getting older,our thought would differ.

*for what i would say,i'm sorry.

someway somehow i realised that guys with over sense of humor ain't attractive at all.i found out that they are total absurd and bore me.

*****

testing.1.2.3.

my mic ain't functioning well.so what i said might be truely my deepest heartiest thought.LOL.

hmm.for every night i watch them pulling each others legs,i felt annoyed out of sudden.rasa macam,"huh,wth with these guys?such obsolete tricks to attracts peeps.pfft."

tibatiba rasa meluat.nak buat macam mana kan?
pms?ohtidak.already passed that phase a week ago.

*****

a few days before,i watched 'Aku Masih Dara' with my mum.

there's a line which Diana Amir said,"lelaki sekarang dah tak kisah la pasal dara"

my mum replied,"lelaki mmg tak kisah pasal dara,kalau nk buat main.tapi mereka pasti mahukan perempuan yg masih dara sebagai isteri."

then,i replied softly deep in my thought,"f*ck them.dh bocorkan dara perempuan,then u deserve a slut."

hohoi.dah jolok anak dara orang,berangan nak bini kau masih dara?dream on.

there's a wise person once said,"perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baik.perempuan yang sudah dijolok juga untuk lelaki yang pernah menjolok"

so,guys,
kalau kau pernah pecah mana-mana lubang,mimpi je lah nak dapat bakal isteri yg masih dara.

so long suckers.

*****

mulut ini celupar.cakap itu cakap ini.nanti terkena pada diri sendiri baru tahu.

ye,tahu lama sudah.then,i'll have to accept everything would happen on me.that's the risk i have to face for being too outspoken.

kau pun sama.jangan cakap je pandai.tetapi apa-apa yang kau cakap,laksana bercakap di hadapan cermin.

apa orang tua cakap?tepuk air di dulang terpercik muka sendiri.

*****

oh btw.
siapa cakap lebih suka tgk perempuan yg hanya memakai baju kurung je?siapa jugak cakap perempuan bertudung bawal biasa lebih menarik perhatian?

aku nak tengok jugak,kalau perempuan tu tak lawa,agak-agak kau nak ke tengok?

serious man.i'll bet u won't even realised their existance.such an hypocrito.LOLLOL.

aku nak tengok jugak,hmm.makwe or isteri kau mmg pakai baju kurung sentiasa?
bertudung bawal biasa jugak?
oh tak?ohh.begitu. *middle finger,please.
oh ye?baguslah. *r u sure u ain't lying?

lelaki sekarang,perempuan sekarang.pandai cakap je kan?but they act differently as what they said.shame on them.booo them.booo.

**END**

i'm typing because i'm a coward to say it loud in front of you.saya ni pengecut kan?awak pun :)

footnote : from engineering change into literacy ok jugak kan?LOL.

kau fikir ini shoping mall?

saya tahu lah awak kapel.ye,kapel  mmg bahagia.

tapi,tak perlu lah nak peluk-peluk bagai kt depan saya.saya juling mata tengok awak peluk-peluk.stim ok.LOL.

awak yg perempuan,
awak pakai tudung kot.malu la sikit.saya yg tengok ni lagi malu ok.awak ke sana sini dengan pakwe awak tu saya pedulik apa kan?mcm takde member perempuan dah.tapi sampai tahap berpelukan pun kt depan orang ramai,awak ingat awak hot siap nak jeling-jeling kami yg melihat ni?euuwww.pleasee la.

awak yg lelaki,
kau nk peluk nak apa apa dan apa,buat dalam semak boleh?tak pun cari bilik terus.jangan show off sangat lah kau ada awek.orang lain pun ada.pegang sana pegang sini.rimas doe.kt shopping complex tu boleh lg lah nk tutup sebelah mata.tapi ni universiti der.tmpt belajar.in case if u don't know what university stands for exactly,

here goes,

A university is an institution of higher education and research, which grants academic degrees in a variety of subjects.     *credits to wikipedia.

wateva,wateva.jangan cakap lah aku cemburu.sekelumit pun tidak.cuma aku yg melihat ni merasa malu dengan perbuatan kamu yg tak tahu malu tu.

hal-hal dalam bilik jangan buat kt luar lah.malu lah orang tengok.kan ayul kan?keh3.

tolonglah fahamkan ayat di atas.please :)

footnote : cakap pasal kapel,bru ingat.dah lama lah tak dating.anyone?cekodod sayang,jom :)

a piece of sh*t

'people,

u may give anything to whom you love but not everything.

someway somehow you'll regret by giving them everything.'

quote by,

tootsie gedik.

sometimes little thing means everything.

muhd afham,

suka main sembunyi-sembunyi dengan saya ye?mana aci awak selalu nampak saya,tapi saya masih tak dapat nak cam awak lagi.pertemuan tak dijangka?saya cabar awak tegur saya depan kawan-kawan saya.mereka pun nak tengok awak mcm mana :)




footnote : gedik.gedik.gedik.jangan main-main lah.taknak kawan baru tahu.

the decision have been made.

mana ada pencen.siapa cakap tootsie pencen?LOL.

will be coming back writing again when i have free time.

next weekend,perhaps.i've got two upcoming test on Thursday and Friday. *tiring enuff.duh

will go back home at 'negeri yg tak boleh disebut' on the day before Thaipusam.thinking of 'lepaking' in Melaka on Friday.mau join? ;)

oh,btw.my experience of handling kursus pra-perkahwinan on this weekend really makes me mencarut-carut oke.nak kahwin tapi menyusahkan orang.sorang-sorang mmg nk mintak pelempang.tak bagi sijil karang marah pulak an?

ding dong bell.after knowing my crush alrady have his sunshine,i better move on.duh,he's not the only one even he's the only matter.urgh,damn it. -.-'

tolong bawak aku ke tempat begini boleh?i need some rest.and FUN.please

footnote : ah,aku dah sawan.malas layan jiwa-jiwa ni.older entry dh TERdelete.kah kah kah.ter lah sangat an?

happy new year everyone.

many have been searching,many have been ask (do they?) and i'm truely sorry.

i just wanna take a deep breath and dive.
so long guys.
i'm taking a break.
hell long break.

xoxo,
tootsie who thinking of closing her blog.

on or off?