thinking of

note before you read this entry : siapa cakap ini entry pasal cinta,aku gigit hidung dia!

a date with ex ain't that bad huh?better than when we in  relationship,i guess.

hey,i know u takkan baca.
but.

"hey,shuk.
i'm having fun today.thanks for being such a gentleman.
u are the best ex i ever have.
but u r not a good boyfriend though.serious.LOL :D "

i'm becoming more and more hypocrite day by day.
no more new one,no more you,you and you.
i'm in comfort by having the old one who still stand still for me.
instead of having the new one who would run away instantly.

 we still connected even we are nothing.better than unconnected by having something.

love it when we holding hands together,

love it when u hold my hand warmly,

love it when your head on my shoulder,

loving it more,when we doesn't have to commit with each other.

easy with no emotionally attached.

:)

other's perception ain't my prior.

footnote : times square,secret recipe,ngangkung.thanks for that.keep holding my hands after this.i love it.ye,aku kan manje.

mentally distracted.

ouch.

don't get me wrong.i'm just proud to say that i'm a freak!yeah,i'm a freak. -.-'

i could smile and i could cry in the same time.

lately,
there's a few conflicts that i've to solve.hurm,let's do some checklist.

i lost my boyfie (yes,again).
i'm busy avoiding my ex(es).
i'm busy with my study.(it's gettin tougher)
i have no money (this is serious)
i haven't pay my broadband bill (that's y no bw)
i'm having pms (that's y there's lotsa probs come out)
i'm trying VERY hard to be setia. (duh,susah la -.-' )

solution?NONE.takmau fikir.takmau fikir.takmau fikir.

duh,life is sooooo complicated though.i was wrong when i told u that life is easy. sorry tambi. (saya masih taknak cakap dengan awak.benci awak)

to cekodod,
awak girlfriend terbaik saya.jom kapel.  :)

to macy,
thanks for the hug.eventhough u are far away. :)

to adrinaqamarina,
hey girl,don't be afraid to share stories with me.just buzz me on my ym.i'm there :)

to ayul,
happy INTRA-ing! :)

to hackshitam,
no words,just a picture. (ok,the words on the picture is for you)
 

wait her,if it worth in the end.

to rastamat,
ayat yg lepas tu.sy tipu je.

to hiro,
the love u chase somehow someway might not worthy to be chase.the love waiting for u might the one really for u. (aku tau semua cerita kau doe.)


to zuely,
awak,can't wait to see you darling :)


to encik tikus,
your smile.thanks for that.even it couldn't bring back what's once mine :)


untuk diri sendiri dan semua orang,

to be one or not to be is what u chose.u choose your life.

akhir kata,
salam maal hijrah semua.finish the unfinished and start create new problems! :D


footnote : sebuah lagi entri busuk untuk tatapan ramai.maaf.maaf.maaf.penulis sedang mengalami keruntuhan akhlak yg melampau. (ah,hiperbola semua ini)

saya pernah sayang awak.

untuk awak yang pernah saya sayang,
berhenti munculkan diri andai niat hati bukan untuk berada di sisi.
berhenti berpura sebagai kawan walhal hakikatnya saya tak mampu memaafkan.
berhenti berasa curiga akan kata-kata yang saya lemparkan walau semuanya benar.
berhenti bermain akan kata-kata kerna kata-kata manis itu akan memakan diri.
berhenti bercerita kerna saya berasa cemburu akan gadis yang bertahun ditunggu.

awak,
saya seorang perempuan.saya harap awak sedar kenyataan itu.
lembut hatinya walau luarannya keras.
lembut bisik jiwanya walau tutur bicaranya lantang.
saya tak berdendam.saya hanya geram.
lama sudah ingin diluah tetapi tidak termampu.

awak,
kejar dia sampai dapat.
peluk dia erat-erat.
dampingi dia sehingga ke akhirat.

saya doakan yang terbaik untuk awak.

saya pernah fikir hidup seorang diri itu indah.ye,saya salah.hidup ini untuk dikongsi bersama.

p/s : aku tak sedih. *sambil lap air mata.terharu oke.karya ini agung.